Maybe you're trying to steer too much. You've got your hands on the rudder and/or the oars and you're trying to go exactly along this imaginary course that you've plotted for yourself. However, sometimes you should just loosen your hands, sit back and relax, and let the wind and the waves take you along. After all, it's taking you in the correct general direction, isn't it?

I'm saying that partly because you talk about a relationship so scientifically. It's like you think you should have one and it should be like this therefore you're gonna just grab someone and do what should be done.

Truly, a relationship is about sharing your life. However, it's not something you have to consciously do -- if you really like someone, you'll do it naturally, without thinking, and without feeling like it's a tiring thing to do. There's no conscious action to it -- if you force yourself to like someone or dislike someone or do this or not do that, it's gonna hurt a lot and ultimately it's not gonna turn out well.

And don't you feel that, at least with good friends, you might not know every bit of their lives, but when you start talking it is as though time had stopped since you last met them? And you can laugh and joke and catch up like it's the most natural thing to do?

I'm not sure what else to say, just a) take care and b) you're not alone at all and c) don't let things get you down.