The Human Instrumentality Project

Thursday, July 27, 2006

To my disgust, 1 second costs $100.. Never mind, I should have one more chance at glory..

In other news, the ants in my room have committed a heinous act. They've invaded my Oreo O's, and that is a blatant declaration of war! It's time to bring out the heavy artillery. I shall teach them to fear my room, and ME!


Monday, July 24, 2006

Another interesting article from xL's blog. Teaches us not to be complacent on our blogs -- it is, after all, on the public domain. Anyone can read what we write. And we wouldn't know they've read it.

Today, was all about enjoyment. I enjoyed waking up at 5am, when the whole world was still quiet. I enjoyed fixing my own breakfast. I enjoyed catching a snooze on the bus and on the train. I especially enjoyed getting my train ride for free :D! I enjoyed the company of the SMRT chaps, even if we never meet again, or forget that we've ever met. I enjoyed E's company, as well. I enjoyed the scenery at Little Guilin, the cool breeze that blew throughout the day, the tranquility of the place. I enjoyed watching the teams play the challenges. I enjoyed their enthusiasm, their energy. I enjoyed their attempts at poetry, though sometimes painful and usually very funny.

I was sitting at the edge of the park, where I had a nice view of a long stretch of road leading to Bukit Gombak MRT. A team of 3 pretty girls spotted me from far and started running towards me excitedly. As they neared I waved at them, and they waved happily back at me, as though they were delighted to see me. Nobody's ever bothered to even act that delighted at the sight of me, so I really, really enjoyed that. You made my day, girls! :)

I enjoyed the staff room at Gombak MRT. I enjoyed the snatches of sleep I grabbed there. I enjoyed the talk on the train with M and E, quite a lot. I enjoyed looking at pretty girls throughout the day :P. I enjoyed my ramen. I enjoyed eating alone, and having a relaxed meal, so relaxed I could afford to sit there after finishing my ramen and sip water and look at more pretty girls :P. I enjoyed sitting at the Merlion, I enjoyed the breeze there and there were pretty girls to look at :). I enjoyed the hall councillors' company, I enjoyed the lightning display in the sky, and what I could see of the fountain display, as well. I enjoyed the night walk, enjoyed having 1 girl tug at my shirt sleeve throughout the walk, enjoyed having 2 girls tug at my shirt sleeves. I enjoyed having a nice hot bath at home, enjoyed watching tv with my mom, enjoyed a nice cup of ice cold Coca Cola (with a pinch of salt), enjoyed typing this entry.

And soon, I'm going to enjoy a nice, good sleep (hopefully dreamless).

All in all, a good day. :)



Friday, July 21, 2006

Here's the article I told Windz about.. lifted from xL's blog. Thanks xL!

Been going out so much that I'm feeling rather burnt. Holidays are almost over and I never had any chance to get some real rest, my mind's always been bothered by one thing or another (or, more frequently, by lots of things at once). Really really want to spend a few days at home getting bored, then getting bored of getting bored.

Somewhere along the way I lost part of myself, replaced it with something that is now valueless, and now I have to find back what I once was, because then I was stronger and more resilient and better equipped for life ahead.

Should have blogged yesterday, when my mood was sky-high. Somedays things just keep going right one after another and my mood just keeps going from high to higher. Yesterday was one of those rare days.

To a friend in the States: Hang in there. Just keep taking small steps in the right direction. And don't ever let yourself slip backwards. And eventually you'll be fine. Call me anytime you need someone to talk to.

Got stuff to do, might blog more later.

Saturday, July 15, 2006

Every time I visit TXP's blog..

You Are 6: The Loyalist

You have strong relationships and are intensely loyal.

People find you easy to love and care for.

You like your world to be stable and secure, no surprises.

You're cautious. You prefer your inner circle to the outside world.

You Are A Pine Tree

You love agreeable company, peace, and harmony.
Compassionate and friendly, you love to help others.
A natural poet, you have a very active imagination.
You are very soft on the inside - needing affection and reassurance.
You can fall in love deeply, but you will leave if you feel betrayed.

[X] I have read a lot of books.
[] I have been on some sort of varsity team.
[X] I have run more than 2 miles without stopping.
[] I have been to Canada.

[] I have been to Europe.
[X] I have watched cartoons for hours.
[X] I have tripped UP the stairs.
[] I have fallen down an entire flight of stairs.
[] I have been snowboarding/skiing.

[X] I have played ping pong.
[] I swam in the ocean.
[] I have been on a whale watch.
[X] I have seen fireworks.

[] I have seen a shooting star.
[] I have seen a meteor shower.
[] I have almost drowned.
[X] I have been so embarrassed I wanted to disappear.

[X] I have listened to one CD over and over and over again.
[]I have had stitches.
[] I have had frostbite.
[] I have licked a frozen pole and got stuck there.
[X] I have stayed up 'til 2 doing homework/projects.

[] I currently have a job.
[] I have been ice skating.
[X] I have been roller blading.
[] I have fallen flat on my face.
[X] I have tripped over my own two feet.
[X] I have been in a fist fight.
[X] I have played video games for more than 3 hours straight.
[X] I have watched the Power Rangers.

[] I attend Church regularly.
[X] I have played truth or dare.
[X] I have already had my 16th birthday.
[X] I have already had my 17th birthday.
[X] I've called someone stupid.
[X] I've been in a verbal argument.
[] I've cried in school.
[] I've played basketball on a team.
[] I've played baseball on a team.
[] I've played football on a team.
[] I've played soccer on a team. during a thunderstorm
[] I've done cheerleading on a team.
[] I've played softball on a team.
[] I've played volleyball on a team.
[] I've played tennis on a team.
[] I've been on a track or cross country team.
[X] I've been swimming more than 20 times in my life.
[] I've bungee jumped.

[X] I've climbed a rock wall.
[X] I've lost more than 20$.
[X] I've called myself an idiot.
[X] I've called someone else an idiot.
[] I've cried myself to sleep.
[X] I've had (or have) pets.

[] I've owned a spice girls CD.
[] I've owned a Britney Spears CD.
[] I've owned an N*Sync CD.
[] I've owned a Backstreet Boys CD.
[] I've mooned someone.
[] I have sworn at someone of authority before.
[] I've been in the newspaper.
[] I've been on TV.
[] I've been to Hawaii.
[X] I've eaten sushi.
[] I've been on the other side of a waterfall.
[] I've watched all of the Lord of the Rings movies.
[] I've watched all the Harry Potter movies.
[] I've watched all of the Rocky movies.
[] I've watched the Stooges.
[] I've watched "Newlyweds" Nick & Jessica.
[X] I've watched Looney Tunes.
[] I've been stuffed into a locker/I have stuffed others into lockers.

[] I've been called a geek.
[X] I've studied hard for a test and got a bad grade.
[X] I've not studied at all for a test and aced it.
[] I've hugged my mom within the past 24 hrs.
[] I've hugged my dad within the past 24 hours.
[] I've met a celebrity/music artist.
[X] I've written poetry.
[] I've been arrested.

[X] I've been attracted to someone much older than me.
[] I've been tickled till I've cried.
[] I've tickled someone else until they cried.
[X] I've had/have siblings.
[] I've been to a rock concert.

[X] I've listened to classical music and enjoyed it.
[X] I've been in a play.
[X] I've been picked last in gym class.
[] I've been picked first in gym class.
[X] I've been picked in that middle-range in gym class.

[] I've cried in front of my friends.
[X] I've read a book longer than 1,000 pages.
[] I've played Halo.
[] I've freaked out over a sports game.
[] I've been to Alaska.

[] I've been to China.
[] I've been to Spain.
[] I've been to Japan.
[] I've had a fight with someone on AIM.
[X] I've had a fight with someone face-to-face.
[X] I've had serious conversations on any IM.

[X] I've forgiven someone who has done something wrong to me.
[X] I've been forgiven.
[] I've screamed at a scary movie.
[] I've cried at a chick flick.
[] I've watched a lot of action movies.
[X] I've screamed at the top of my lungs.
[] I've been to a rap concert.

[] I've been to a hip hop concert.
[X] I've lived in more than 2 houses.
[X] I've driven on the highway/been on the highway.
[] I've driven more than 40 miles in a day/been in a car that went more than 40 miles in a day.
[] I've been in a car accident.

[ ] I've done drugs.
[X] I've been homesick.
[X] I've thrown up.
[] I've puked on someone.
[] I've been horseback riding.

[] I've filled out more than 10 myspace/LJ surveys.
[] I've spoken my mind in public.
[X] I've proved someone wrong.
[X] I've been proven wrong by someone.
[] I've broken a leg.

[] I've broken an arm/fingers.
[] I've fallen off a swing.
[] I've swung on a swing for more than 30 minutes straight
[] I've watched Winnie the Pooh movies.
[X] I've forgotten my backpack when I've gone to school.

[] I've lost my backpack.
[] I've come close to dying.
[] I've seen someone die.
[X] I've known someone who has died.
[X] I've wanted to be an actor/actress at some point.

[] I've done modeling.
[X] I've forgotten to brush my teeth some mornings.
[X] I've taken something/someone for granted.
[X] I've realized how good my life is.
[X] I've counted my blessings.
[X] I've made fun of a classmate.
[] I've been asked out by someone and I said no.

[] I've slapped someone in the face.
[] I've been skateboarding.
[] I've been backstabbed by someone I thought was a friend.
[X] I've lied to someone to their face.
[X] I've told a little white lie.

[] I've taken a day off from school just so I don't go insane.
[] I've fainted.
[] I've had an argument with someone about whether cheerleading is a sport or not.
[] I've pushed someone into a pool.
[] I've been pushed into a pool.
[X] I've been/am in love.

It's been quite a while since this happened. Last night's dreams were finally pleasant, I had a good sleep and I woke up in a good mood. I also managed to sleep past 10am for the first time this week. So, finally got some good things to blog about. :)

My parents said last night during dinner that I have a blessed life. I thought about it and agreed. So they told me that I should treasure what I have. And I asked, how to treasure what I have? Beyond being thankful, beyond doing what I'm doing now? They were stumped. I jokingly asked, what, you want me to do big stuff? Invent the cure for cancer? And they said that would be nice! But, for me, what I want from life are actually pretty simple. I want to get the basics right, most importantly of all. I want to be a good husband, I want to be a good father, I want to be a filial son, I want to be a good elder brother, I want to be a good friend. If, along the way, I can save half of mankind and leave my name for posterity, that's icing on the cake.

Will be busy busy busy all the way till school opens, and then beyond! Aiyah holiday objectives less than 50% complete.. carry over again lor :P

To a friend: If you're still reading this blog, wouldn't be able to see you off at the airport, so here's Bon Voyage. Enjoy your holiday Down Under, and don't worry about how things are back here.

Friday, July 07, 2006

1. Do the following WITHOUT complains
2. Choose 5 people to do this after you completed yours
3. Leave a tag on the person's tagboard to say he/she have been tagged
4. Start your post with "I have been tagged!"

Wah test me sia.. if I never read your blog I wouldn't know I've been tagged lor.. Whoops shoulda act blur :P

favourite colour: Blue. Shade varies with mood.
favourite food: Salmon sashimi!!
favourite song: too many to list..
favourite movie: LOTR
favourite sport: Soccer, Hockey
favourite day of the week: holiday!
favourite season: i've only ever seen 1 before..
favourite ice-cream: mint. preferably with chocolate.

current mood: ... too complex to put in words.
current taste: ???
current clothes: 3 for $10 shorts. too hot for a shirt.
current desktop: still my IBM T43. which badly needs a reformat.
current toenail: this question thingy is soooo girl-oriented..
current time: 11.07pm
current surroundings: corner of my study. freaking warm.
current thoughts: i should be taking my bath..

first best friend: ZJ. And Al. Haven't kept in contact with them for years, sadly..
first crush: p5..
first movie: some chinese movie, which I was too young to understand.. i was just a lightbulb for my parents lor!
first lie: erm.. who remembers such things?!
first music: huh??

last cigarette: when i was 3 and my grandpa was silly enough to give me a puff. made me swear off cigarettes forever!
last drink: plain water lor.
last car ride: took cab on wednesday
last crush: sometime in jc ba..
last movie: erm.. forgot liao :P quite long time ago le..
last phone call: work-related call.. :'(
last CD played: dun play CDs liao, is all MP3 playlists.

Have you ever
have you ever dated your best friend: No. I dun date guys.
have you ever broken the law: i jaywalk a lot.
have you ever been arrested: No
have you ever skinny-dipped: only in bathtubs. and only when alone.
have you ever been on tv: not to my knowledge
have you ever kissed someone you don't know: never kissed b4.

5 things you are wearing: dun have 5 lor.. specs, shorts, and something underneath the shorts..
4 things you done today: work, work, work and play a bit.
3 things you can hear right now: cars outside my window, my mum yawning, my keyboard
1 thing you do when you are bored: Play games lor.

5 peeps to tag :
Nah.. not tagging anybody.. do if you want to lah.

Mystiara, pls.. spare me.. lol.

Went out with JQ, Windz and PF on Wednesday night. It's so good to see them again. And to enjoy their company. But their appetites seem to have shrunk.. Maybe because they're tired.. Still, it's great to hear about their life there, even if life is sometimes no more than just study and dota.

Just visited PF's blog.. Actually anyone who was observant would have guessed. I wouldn't say more on this issue lah, all I can say she's said already. I'll keep my phone by my side.

IPPT booked on the 27th! Wish me luck.. I think I'll be lucky to get a silver this time, though I'll still be gunning bravely for gold.

Today I found out that, some dreams are scary only after you wake up from them.

10+ years down the road, and Animaniacs is still as funny. Thanks KT for passing me a copy!

Another busy day today, datelines looming, so it's back to work for me.

Tuesday, July 04, 2006

KTV for 2 days in a row! Monday's got poor LY sabo-ed into a scandal, today's saw a little debate about birthdays and years of life. I still haven't managed to sing all the songs I want to sing, though.. Haha.

Windz and JQ are back!! Yay now almost all my best buddies are back in SG.. It's time to meet and meet and meet and meet and meet before I get busy. And before everyone flies back again. This contributes greatly to my bubbly mood today.

Which was almost threatened by the multi-hit combo I was dealt last night. I woke up at least 4 times from scary dreams, which totally wrecked whatever sleep I managed to get. Here's what I can recollect of them:

There was this hazy one where I was being chased by lots of people with guns, and I was getting shot at and running, then I woke up when I was cornered. Pretty normal fare.

Then a vivid one: I was walking along a corridor in some school. Then this girl came up to me and held my hand. I was amused, but didn't say anything, and we continued down the corridor, hand in hand. We came upon this row of lockers, and she opened one of them and put our joined hands inside. Then she let go of my hand, motioned for me to leave it in the locker, and went off. A short distance in front of the lockers, she stopped in front of this guy and said the only thing in the dream, "Will you be my boyfriend?" The guy took up her hand and they carried on down the corridor hand in hand, leaving me with my right hand in a locker and looking stupid. Then I woke up. WTF.

Another vivid one: I was sitting beside this field with a bunch of people. There were 2 harvesters working the field, and in the middle was an orange tree with gigantic oranges. People on the harvesters were plucking oranges half their size and putting them into huge baskets on the harvesters. Suddenly this huge caterpillar was crawling in my direction. It kept crawling towards me and I stood up, a little apprehensive. Then, as it reached me, it turned into a baby crocodile and swallowed my right hand. I tried to free myself but it just kept wriggling about and swallowing my arm inch by inch. I managed to grab its tail but somehow I knew that I couldn't escape no matter how I tried. It was halfway up to my elbow when I woke up. And gave up trying to sleep any longer.

Like, WTF?? My mum said that if I have nightmares I must talk about them during mealtimes, it'll prevent the nightmare from becoming reality. Something about eating the nightmare up, which was quite amusing.

Wanted to blog more but spent so much time chatting on MSN that I pretty much forgot what I wanted to blog. Anyway looking forward to dinner tomorrow, when the 5 of us gather together again after so long. Also need to raise my force shield to full power for tomorrow! Please no more nightmares tonight for me, surely I've fulfilled the quota for the month already.

Monday, July 03, 2006

BB Mak - Ghost Of You And Me

What am I supposed to do
With all these blues
Haunting me, everywhere, no matter what I do
Watching the candle flicker out in the evening glow
I cant let go
When will the night be over

I didn't mean to fall in love with you
And baby there's a name for what you put me through
It isn't love, it's robbery
I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me

Seen a lot of broken hearts go sailing by
Phantom ships, lost at sea
And one of them is mine
Raising my glass, I sing a toast to the midnight sky
I wonder why
The stars don't seem to guide me

I didn't mean to fall in love with you
And baby there's a name for what you put me through
It isn't love, it's robbery
I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me

The ghost of you and me
When will it set me free
I hear the voices call
Following footsteps down the hall
Trying to save what's left of my heart and soul

Watching the candle flicker out in the evening glow
I can't let go
When will this night be over

I didn't mean to fall in love with you
And baby there's a name for what you put me through
It isn't love, it's robbery
I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me

I didn't mean to fall in love with you
And baby there's a name for what you put me through
It isn't love, it's robbery
I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me

Sunday, July 02, 2006

Read this on my granddaughter's blog..
As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will.
You will have your heart broken, probably more than once, and it's harder every time.
You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken.
You'll fight with your best friend. (nah i won't. don't like to fight with friends..)
You'll blame a new love for things an old one did.
You'll cry because time is passing too fast,
and you'll eventually lose someone you love.

So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back.

Saturday, July 01, 2006

"You are a waste of good balls." - Catalina, Grand Theft Auto: San Andreas

Some people become real bastards when they're behind their computer. They seem to forget that behind other personas and avatars are humans too. They do things they'd never do if their face was exposed. It's sad that they infest everything. Looks like I'll be playing DOD a lot less.

SoC Camp is over! All in all it was a great experience. Being a councillor is not an easy task, and I hope my performance was up to par. Next up, Sheares Orientation! Meanwhile it is rush rush rush to meet DWT deadlines. Time flashes by much too fast as the date nears, and manpower is such a big headache.

Good friends are hard to find, and even harder to find are friends to whom I can be perfectly honest, more honest than I am to myself, even! It is a pity the circumstances are as they are. I have said before, I can be hard on myself and on others if I think it is necessary. Therefore if, paradoxically, I have to do some convincing, then so be it. I... will leave no room for doubt.

My friends

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