FIN. A little voice at the back of my head asks why I don't fel sad. Well, it's not that I don't feel sad, but sadness is just one small part of the tsunami of emotions crashing through my brain right now. Sadness that there can be nothing more between us, relief that I have finally found release, worry that Sel might be involved, concern that the 2 of them are still... at it, even envy, just a wee bit, for obvious reasons. Now, she'll just join the small group of girls who are special to me, whom I'll go the extra mile for, knowing all the while that nothing further is possible. With her it'll be a bit harder, since I will have to see her a fair bit more often than the rest, but nothing a little effort wouldn't settle.
